As in difficult! My GERD has been acting up and last night was unbearable. Won't gross you out with the details, but suffice it to say that I was awake from 3:00 on this morning, and each time I tried to drift off to sleep, poker-straight in the chair, I woke up choking. I hate nights like that.
I think it's flaring up with the thoughts that I will be returning to work on December 1. The group sessions, as intensive as they were, were a safety net for me. I've not been as diligent with taking my medications on time, and I know how critical that is. My fear is that I'm not ready to return to a situation that caused me to plummet into a depression in the first place.
I'm trying, on the doctor's advice, to get back to the things that used to make me happy. Glad to say that my fish I bought last week are still alive. Even been thinking about trying to get back to that sweetheart ripple afghan. As it is, my blogging has been limited at best. I spend most of the time checking my e-mail wanting to get in touch with others and finding it difficult to do.
We had planned to join my sister at her house for Thanksgiving but her son has H1N1 flu, so we will be staying home. Hope I can get some help in the kitchen. I went out earlier to pick up the dinner fixings and I'm so tired that my butt is in the chair and I can hardly move. But that's been my status for the last 2 months.
Bought another skein of yarn today. Looks like good yarn to make a donut pincushion. It will be a homemade gift Christmas this year. I have two sisters who sew and would probably like these.