Monday's session was hard to get through, as the group focused on me and my problems. It made me not want to return on Wednesday, but I find that my desire to get well outweighs the bad feelings dredged up during sessions. I went in and found that one of the topics was Mindfulness and how it can work for you. I've had a session on mindfulness already and I had some problems wrapping my mind around the idea.
I was super-stressed out and kind of zoned-out during the session. Some of it must have sunk in however. Today, I walked out on my way to another appointment and was struck by the sense of the sun trying to break through the clouds - the warmth, the bright light. For a moment, I didn't notice my overwhelming feelings. A few minutes later, as I drove along seeing the trees mostly denuded of leaves, my attention was captured by 3 trees still wearing their autumn attire. One bright gold, one burgundy and one rust, all standing in a row. "Wow!" I though. "How cool is that?" Again, mindful of my surroundings and not my feelings for a change. I must remember to tell the moderator of the mindfulness session about my experience. Not sure if this is what she meant by mindfulness, but it's what I think I took away from the session.
Lastly, these are the photos of the chemo caps I made for my sister-in-law. Made from patterns found at Yarncat's website.